Feelings are fleeting, but His presence....permanent.

It's an odd sensation that comes upon me as I look at those dearest to me graduate from CBC. Those girls whom I began my journey there with, who I've cried with, laughed with, listened to, gone to at all hours of the night for a simple hug of comfort....Those same girls have completed a season in their lives and I, being halfway around the world neither completed that season with them, nor was there to witness such an event that we all talked about and looked forward to since the beginning. It's amazing the grace and comfort that is supplied at just the right time. I could be bitter, I could be sad, I could be a lot of things, but none of which would express what I truly am...and that is overjoyed, thankful, blessed. I'm exactly where i'm supposed to be and had I not obeyed and taken this road, I would have not learned the lessons that I have. I would not have learned FULL dependence and it's truly incredible how this year away from home has driven me into the arms of a Savior who has captured my heart. I love my friends, don't get me wrong, but they were becoming who I went to first, they were becoming the one's I would seek help and advice from...not that some of that is bad, but I had put Dad second. Having been here, He's the one I laugh with, cry out to, spend the most time with. The journey He and I are on, will never come to an end...The chapters are never over...Season never changes.Sure there will be changes in my life, He will bring me in and through different seasons, but He is never changing. HE is the same yesterday today an tomorrow. What an awesome comfort. I may have given up a final CBC season with some very amazing friends, but I gained so much more! I'm reassured constantly that He didn't bring me half way around the world to have me return miserable...I have been changed, I have been refined, molded, stretched and challenged....I have been brought to my knees, and I have seen His face. I have felt his presence and experienced his heart not only for me but for man. I have by no means got it figured out...by no means have I finished the race, but I have grown in knowledge and truth of who it is that I serve. My hope is that when I return the passion and fire will only continue to increase and will be seen through the very eyes that have encountered the Most High. I'm excitd and look forward to spending my last year at CBC with some amazing people, some of which i've yet to meet, but I have no doubt they will be anything less than amazing. So while the tears have come and gone, The memories Emily, Kayla, and Sarah, that we have shared are forever embedded upon my heart. And I have no doubt that many more will come no matter the distance between us. I am so very proud of you, as well as my dear friend Kristi Lee and Jordan Morgan...you girls mean so much to me! I love you and I know that GREAT and wonderful things are being done in and through you. I'm blessed to call you friend, and more than that, sister.