What's in a perspective

It's funny what it took for my eyes to see this new perspective....I stayed in yesterday because the night before i was up sick (thanks for jinksing (how does one even spell that?) me zach nance!) anyway i was in all day and not feeling well....i had the room to mysef because sav was out with the girls for girls day out that we had planned...As i was sitting here i decided i could either waste time watching yet another movie, or i could spend time with the one that means the most to me...I opted for the second. :) As i sat in silence and the tears began to fall my room was filled with such a presence that was almost tangibly felt. I spent some time in the word and just talking to him about my life and where it's going...for the first time in my life as far as "what i'm supposed to do when i grow up" i have no plans....so many times i would plan everything, i would say i will do this or that, that he wants me here or there, and i had such a blurred view of what he really was calling me to do ....so i'm sitting here and he began to speak...i was soaking it all in and while i can't tell you on here what was said, the point is that he is moving and asking me to sit still and listen....move when he moves me and do as he wills.... My eyes are being opened to things i had never before given a second thought to and my perspective on things and things of this earth, is changing....What triggered this (well i say triggered it, but he's been working on me for a while) nonetheless yesterday as i was sitting listening to music one minute...the next all of it is gone! no trace of any of my music folders....disappeared....If you know me, you know that i love music...It's my escape, it's what keep me sane....so i had again two choices...get really mad and upset which would do me no good, or i could take it for what it is and move on...re-build my itunes and go on....once again i opted for the second. He's givine me an eternal perpective on things that really matter...don't get me wrong, music means a lot to me...but in the big scheme of things really doesn't matter an iota....the whole itunes incident happened before i did my qt....So as i'm sitting there he begins to pour words into my soul and asks me to write them as he often does, so i do and again, i wish i could post the outcome, but wow! the words ministered to my own soul...showed me so many thing about how i view certain things and how i am simply an unworthy servant. Well, i'm not sure if this post makes any sense to you or not, but i'm doing the best i can with what i've got. heh I hope you were able to piece things together that i could not come right out and say, and well if you didn't get anything out of this post get this....Let us begin to have a perspective that goes beyond what our earthly eyes can see....I'm learning